JS

Okay everybody knows that i love jessica simpson..can't express how much of a role model she is to me. I was reading an old glamour magazine, probably like 5 months old maybe..she was on the cover. In there was the 50 most beautiful woman and she wasn't one of them. I'm sorry but jessica is like top 10 and maybe it was because she was on the cover, they didn't add her? I dunno i'm just really upset about that. Open your eyes people!

Reality TV

Is it just me or does heidi and spencer make you want to throw the f up?? First of all, the show "the hills" is fake, its always been fake. I have watched the show and will say its a bit addicting, but its just fake and everyone knows it. The whole audrina-lo spat is just retarded. MTV needs their ratings so thats why its still on, just like the real world!
Heidi and spencer are so fucking annoying. Every picture i see is all staged and in one of the gossip magazines theres an interview with them saying how spencer is going to propose again and he's sleeping on the couch, whatever. Thats the 2nd interview i've seen....same magazine. Then there are pictures of them on the beach, giving her mom flowers, etc. What the hell? Do they tip the paparazzi and say "we'll be on the corner or whatever and whatever at this time, come take a picture". Its just starting to annoy me and they act like they are celebrities. Hello you've been on the hills thats it!!! Your music sucks, your boyfriend is a dog and nobody cares about you.
Seriously.....get a life.
The other person i'm so tired of is tila tequila and flavor flav and all these stupid shows. Who cares that you're a bisexual asian cunt who can't find love. You're just a whore who likes to f**k. As for flavor flav....you are old, ugly and you need to get a life.

Long Island

I've only been out of long island for 4 years and when I moved to Seattle, i got really homesick and wanted to move back. I eventually got over it. Now i'm here florida, its offically a year today that we've been here and i'm homesick again. I miss long island so much!!!! I miss my islanders, my friends, family, but more importantly i miss being part of the islander organization. I wasn't just a season ticket holder, i was a board member of the booster club and was part of a huge family there.
Its not just that, its everything.
I can't move because 1 its so expensive and 2 i'm now forced to take care of my mother who is now disabled and only gets a certain amount of $$ each month, therefore she couldn't afford long island. Florida is great and cheap, but i'm bored! There is nothing to do here. ughh this sucks.
I wanna move back to long island, move back to nassau county, get back the job I turned down at the NYI, eventually buy a house..the whole nine. When i left new york to seattle, i had no responsiblities. I was by myself and didn't have to worry about anything but me. I didn't expect to be taking care of my mother, not to mention my younger brother at my age. I have no boyfriend to speak of either. THIS SUCKS!!!
I feel like everything is going okay in my life career wise, but everything else hasn't. I'm fortunate enough to move around with my job, but finding an inexpensive place to live on long island may never happen.
If someone can find me a 3 bdrm house for under $1800 a month, that accepts dogs, i'd be in my glory. Craigslist is out....seriously i can never find anything good on that stupid site. If we were to move, it wouldn't be till next year, but i've been looking for so long, I haven't found anything, doubt i will anytime soon.

So.....

Its 1am i'm up working as usual on a saturday night.....talking to my two fav people out in WA state who sorta triggered me to join this.

How is it that I have such a boring life at age 27? Seriously. When I lived on long island my life had meaning, it was fun, didn't party that much, but how did i end up like this lol. Ughhh whatever.
I was talking to my dad the other day about how i miss long island and how i want to move back and how things have changed in the last 4 years. When i moved to seattle in 05, i had no responsiblities and only had myself to take care of. Now i'm stuck taking care of my disabled retired mother and my younger brother. She only gets a certain amount of $$ every month and is going back to work hopefully next year. My brother well.....has gotten into some trouble since we've been down here and we are fixing that. He works and pays his bills, but he can't live on his own either. WHY ME???

I guess i can say my life isn't what i wanted it to be right around now. I'm going to be 28 next month, no kids, hubby or boyfriend to speak of, but my career has been great. Running my company and having it be successful is something I've always wanted, so guess i can't have everything right??